service ystd was cool (:
gosh i just wish the week will pass by quickly and then its saturday again.
we didnt rochor again ystd. ): i was disappointed actually. =x i mean after all, everytime we want to rochor, something crops up. its been 5 weeks like that alr. then again, we don't go all the time because its for the benefit of someone else. and i dont mind. (:

so yeah. ANGEL! REST WELL ! (:
you were so brave to go up and share testimony ystd. you were so funnayyy.
jiayou in growing tampines okay! you have changed so much so much.
i shall post the neoprint we took some other time. you were such a ball. :D


i loved loved loved dmm reunion dinner at cafe cartel!
had so much fun playing with esther teo, playing with the food (aha) ,taking videos of her,doing dumb stuff (as usual ).
food is an eye opener for esther teo, so, you guys should see how she CHOPS her steak (:

we shared much, thanks JINGJING! for the sms, yeah i still love you sister!

God reminded me of a few things during service.
one, during worship.
why why why. i've been asking God why. why is it that these things happen to me, why he had to place this problem in my life, and etc.
but God reminded me that its how mature-ly you respond to the situation thats most impt.
such a simple phrase but its like enlightenment. :D

then during altar call. God wanted to encourage.
i was like, yeah man. encouragement!
in the beginning i found that the encouragement wasn't for me. then came the sentence..
God wants to encourage those, who wanted to do something a few months back but didnt, cos you needed encouragement.
something like that.
then i thought through.. God, sounds like me.
then i thought again. man, bingo! i now remember whats that incident.
then i was thinking.. is it really that incident?
then came these few words.... a vision for your school.
i was like, man God thats me!

rather unsure of whether i should still go ahead and do it. there's gonna be risks, there's gonna be more problems coming along,there's gonna be more tears and sweat shed.
but God, i trust that you will lead the way.
in fact right this moment, im hesitating. but im gonna walk out of my comfort zone and do something for you. coral cant possibly be left the state its in now.
im reminded of your vision for me. to be a messenger to people of all ages.
this vision will come to pass someday. i may not see it coming now, but throughout my life, i will.

God, i can seek encouragement from people, rely on fellowship to keep me satisfied,but all these things are nothing when you're not the core of it. i've lingered in self pity long enough to continue this way.
every saturday on the way home, i feel so.. again. i miss the fellowship. most of all, i regret the time during worship when i doubted your presence. and etc. im reminded of my problems all over again. during service when you speak to me, i get so on fire. but after that? everything seems to vanish.
this cannot be the way.

if others can lead lives so powerfully for you, i dont see why i cant.
you love us all equally, and you long for us to do great and wondrous things for you.
i want to lead a life that you want to see me living.
because God, i simply love you.

you are the one.(:
in my loneliness, you were there. you received a broken life with open hands.

im scared; i really really am. i can almost cry, seriously. but its all worth it, for you.

my people, are you in this with me?
im sorry for letting you gals down, sorry for not being there when you needed encouragement, needed me. im really sorry.
i know you tried hard and a lot of times, i doubt your efforts. i realise im wrong. if i upset you in any way, tell me. i'd want to hear, and grow in that area.


Amen. (: